This morning I woke up and no sooner did I get out of bed did the tears start falling. I guess it finally hit me - my life as I know it is REALLY (and I mean REALLY) about to change! Tomorrow is Mother's Day and may be the last time for a while that I get to spend Mother's Day with two of my four children. My husband and I and our twins will be moving over 3,000 miles away, while our daughter will stay and continue to go to college and our oldest son will go in to the Air Force.
How real is it getting for me? On Tuesday our son swears in and in 17 days my husband leaves for three months of training to be a chaplain in the Army. The day after he returns we move. I crawled into bed last night thinking that in three and a half months I'll be crawling into bed in a totally different place!
This Sunday is the last Sunday my husband will preach in the church we started seven years ago. Next Sunday will be my last Sunday to lead in worship there. As I worked on the service for that Sunday it was so difficult. My mind was flooded with beautiful memories of worshipping the Lord together with other believers. So many songs had memories of beautiful worship to my God and King, and the excitement of how it would feel to look out and see other people praising God or broken because of the words we just sang and how God used that song to speak to their heart. Thoughts of how wonderful it's been to work with a great group of people on our praise team for all these years and the friendships born out of that come to mind, or when we'd sing a song over and over again at practice just because we wanted to continue to praise the Lord with the words flowing from that song! I pray God will give me the opportunity to continue to work with music wherever we go. It's a great passion of mine - one I know he has given me.
Well, the tears have gone and the Lord has replaced it with excitement as I wrote this. I love how the Lord can do that. I know He has great plans for us and I thank Him for His love and compassion that move me. I love the Lord with all my heart and will serve Him however He leads...even across the states and away from my children, my family and my friends. He tells us to take up our cross and follow Him and that's what I am going to do!