Saturday, May 12, 2007

A few moments of tears...

This morning I woke up and no sooner did I get out of bed did the tears start falling. I guess it finally hit me - my life as I know it is REALLY (and I mean REALLY) about to change! Tomorrow is Mother's Day and may be the last time for a while that I get to spend Mother's Day with two of my four children. My husband and I and our twins will be moving over 3,000 miles away, while our daughter will stay and continue to go to college and our oldest son will go in to the Air Force.

How real is it getting for me? On Tuesday our son swears in and in 17 days my husband leaves for three months of training to be a chaplain in the Army. The day after he returns we move. I crawled into bed last night thinking that in three and a half months I'll be crawling into bed in a totally different place!

This Sunday is the last Sunday my husband will preach in the church we started seven years ago. Next Sunday will be my last Sunday to lead in worship there. As I worked on the service for that Sunday it was so difficult. My mind was flooded with beautiful memories of worshipping the Lord together with other believers. So many songs had memories of beautiful worship to my God and King, and the excitement of how it would feel to look out and see other people praising God or broken because of the words we just sang and how God used that song to speak to their heart. Thoughts of how wonderful it's been to work with a great group of people on our praise team for all these years and the friendships born out of that come to mind, or when we'd sing a song over and over again at practice just because we wanted to continue to praise the Lord with the words flowing from that song! I pray God will give me the opportunity to continue to work with music wherever we go. It's a great passion of mine - one I know he has given me.

Well, the tears have gone and the Lord has replaced it with excitement as I wrote this. I love how the Lord can do that. I know He has great plans for us and I thank Him for His love and compassion that move me. I love the Lord with all my heart and will serve Him however He leads...even across the states and away from my children, my family and my friends. He tells us to take up our cross and follow Him and that's what I am going to do!

5 comments:

Rachel said...

I, too, am not looking forward to my husband going to Fort Jackson in June. I am excited that he is going, but I so dread being separated from him. I can't let myself think about deployments, or it is overwhelming.
I found your blog via Chaplain Kay's blog, btw.

~~Rachel
www.nothinggold.net

LauraLou said...

Rachel,

Thanks for leaving me a comment. We will have to chat more! I couldn't get on your blog, but will try again.

Hoping you stop back by and get this message...
Laura

Sara said...

I know those feelings all too well...

My situation is quite different from yours- instead of being married with kids when he went off to CHOBC (what is now CH-BOLC), we had just gotten engaged. Two days after graduation we got married... then 10 days later he was on his way to Iraq. But what I've realized from our short time in the Army is that no one will have the same situation as you, but we all have common experiences that bond military wives like none other!

I will not attempt to offer you any trite words of wisdom, for there's nothing I can say that you don't already know. What I WILL say is that it's not easy. There will be hard days, and less-hard-days. There are times that you think, "I can do this! I'm awesome! I'm independent! This is a piece of cake!" Then there are other times that (at least for me) the only thing that helped me drown my tears was a pint of Starbucks ice cream!

Do you have any idea where you will be headed after CH-BOLC? We are at Ft. Stewart now but will be PCSing the beginning of next year. If you have any questions on the Army or the chaplaincy or ANYTHING, please let me know. (you can comment on my blog, or send an email to my husband through his site at chaplainfisher.com)

I will be praying for you and your family as you embark on this new (and wonderful!) journey. God bless.

Sara

LauraLou said...

Sara,

Thanks for leaving me a comment. I'm looking forward to meeting more military wives when we move after his training. Keep in touch!

Laura

Personalized Sketches and Sentiments said...

I like to go to a first post...often to find how or why or what it was that got a blog started. It has been great to meet others that otherwise would not have been possible. I didnt even know what a blog was until our daughter showed hers to us in the Spring of 2009. :o)

I am so happy that she gifted me with a blog design and then encouraged me to get my blog and etsy shop going...now also have a fb art page, but still learning more about all this computer stuff :o)

God bless you and your family as you continue your journey and calling.

Blessings & Aloha!